Life, Parenting And Relationships

Billy Jean



Billy Jean

Most Kids are Born out of accidents, very few People are smart enough to implement Plan Parenthood techniques. The accident occurres when young People are testing the Waters of their sexuality, Instead of focusing on their Education and Careers, they can’t wait to prove that they are grown up and do all the stupid things that adults do such as Smoking, Drinking, doing Drugs and getting each other Knocked up. What happens between those experimental stages and them coming to grip with the stark reality of actually growing up, defines what they have learned from you of what Life in reality is truly about. Getting Pregnant while still being a Teenager robs you of a lot of things, your youth and youthfulness, Strech Marks and Stress knows no Age.



Putting off your Education for a year or two, many times dictates its end, sometimes out of necessity to care for the Child, so please explain to me the benefits of that moment’s pleasure. I hate to be so brutally frank but the Birds and the Bees do not work for me. When my Brother and I were Teenagers and becoming sexually active my Mother told us that when you’re out there feeling your Oats don’t forget to keep your Drawers up because I have raised you and I am not going to raise your indiscretions. He wasn’t listening to the Greatest Sex Talk that a single Mom was giving to her two Male Children, he became a father at seventeen without a Job, putting the burden on the Girl’s Parents.




When my Mother became Pregnant with her first Child her good Christian Parents ejected her from the family main Resistance into the one Room Guest Shack twenty five yards from the comfort of her Home. My Mother was the Ultimate Mother, she was practicing when she was still a Child helping her Mother care for her twelve other indiscretions, How Hypocritical. As the result of helping her Mother changing Diapers and preparing Meals she was taken out of School at an early age which robbed her of a formal Education, all she was afforded was the basics. With an above average intelligence she was forced to take a Domestic Position with a General’s Family.

The family saw the injustice perpetrated on her and decided to Home School her. They say Education make fools of those without Common Sense. Her Home Schooling and Common Sense allowed her to Rub Elbows with People who were way above her Menial Education such as Ships Captains and Doctors, she even turned down Marriage from a Doctor who didn’t believe in having Children around. Anyway we are talking about Children throwing away the rest of their lives for a moment’s Pleasure. With a College Degree in Economic she could lead a Third World country out of Poverty, with the little money she made people in School including Teachers thought we were Rich, she knew how to make a Dollar out of fifteen Cents.



I would like to quit talking about her but she was Brilliant with her Parenting Skills, I started going Bad early and she picked up on it early. Can you imagine the Dilemma for a single Mom who sent her Adolescent Son to Sunday School every Sunday finding an Ounce of High Quality Marijuana in her fourteen Years pocket while doing the Laundry. How she handled the situation was an Education for me to raise two Boys in New York City and never feared them using Drugs when it was everywhere around them. When she found my Weed she flushed it down the Toilet and gave herself a week to cool down instead of beating me into a Coma for letting her down. Once she cooled down and got over the blow that I had delt her. 

One Day out of the blue she told me that if I continued this Lifestyle she was going to put me in Juveniles Detention. Personally I think that was just a scare Tactic. Regardless the job she performed as a Drug Counselor was of PHD quality, telling me about the Gateway effects, Crime and Punishment to withdrawal from other Opiates, even though she was never a user her Knowledge was vast. Anyway that’s enough about her Parenting Skills we are talking about yours, for not talking to your Kids about the Dangers of being sexually active as Teenagers. You need to tell them that becoming a Parent changes their Lives forever, the Baby has to Eat even if you go to Bed hungry, the Baby needs Clothes even when there are holes in yours it needs Medical treatment when you have to take an Aspirin.

Having a Child is a life changing experience. My Grandma was a Puritanical Woman she never had the Talk that my Mother had with me at fifteen when I was looking up Girls Skirts, she said first you need an Education and a Job before you start making Babies there are too many Fatherless Homes out there. While working at the Resort on St Pete Beach I observed two fifteen years old Kids in the Kiddies Pool with Moves that told me they were having Sex regularly. Where were their Parents who bought the Plane Tickets and paid for the Hotel Rooms. Like T Sex said Bang a Gong get it on. I once met a Man who taught he was a Player, he bragged to me that he had twenty Kids, that’s just about as Hillbilly as this business of Sex gets. Fatherless Homes is an Epidemic in this Country. She said I am the one but the Kid is not my Son. Thank you Michael for the insight, Pac said it best ” Brenda is having A Baby the Girl can barely spell Her Name”.


P.S I know that there are some duplicate contents, but sometimes when you are trying to drive a point home you become repetitive.


Secret Places

Secret Places

Ever since Childhood I have always had secret places, somewhere I could go and loose myself or whatever troubled me. I even have a secret place in my Mind sort of like Zen,  mostly it’s Meditation,there I can lock out everything from Pain to stress. As far as Physical places are concerned the Ocean and the Wilderness are my favorite. When I gaze across the Ocean I become humbled at its vastness above and below. When I ponder it’s creation I become intoned with my Spirituality, accepting that Life is bigger than you or I, thinking that I am better than a lowly Vagrant is just about Sacrilegious.

One of my Mental Lighthouses that brings me back the Earth and keep me grounded is creating a picture in my mind of Jesus washing the dirty smelly Feet of his Disciples, that is an absolute backhand to all the Egomaniacs in the world, the King of Kings washing Feet in a Slavelike manner to teach us Humility, that is my favorite secret Place, the Lighthouse of my Spirituality. Without having so many secret Places I am certain that I could not have overcome day to day living in such an Evil Society where Injustice, Persecution and Brutality is the Norm, Babylonian Mentality is acceptable Christianity is undermined, just look at Social Media posting a Baboon masturbating .

How could I live and function in such a sick Society without taking up Vantage the way the Las Vegas Shooter did venting his Breakdown, If he had my secret places all those People would still be alive today. That is what happens when you take it all to Heart and have no place to Recoil. When I lived in Pennsylvania I contemplated building a Log Cabin high on a Mountain where my next Door Neighbor was five miles away. I ditched the Idea for my Wife’s sake, she does not like the Wilderness, also that would be like dropping out of Society. Instead I stayed among you to show you that Baby Boy is all grown up, mentally I am living on that Mountain.

The average person is unable to rise above Social upheavals as I did and so they acted out and up, to their Demise. 1971 I almost lashed out on Society by Joining the Black Panther Party. On my way to be initiated the Safe house blew up killing two members, God have always protected me from the Valley of Death and Society. When I was seventeen if you told me that I would be operating my own Website excersisng Freedom of Speech, I would have called you Nuts. Back then my secret Place was Marijuana and Colt45, my my have we evolved. Today I open my Liquor Cabinet Loaded with everything from Grand Marnier to Courvoisier when I was twenty this would have been my secret Place.

I look in my Medicine Cabinet and I see a Bottle with twenty seven and a half OxiContin that was never and will never be one of my secret places growing up in a Drug Culture have cured me. Music is in my top five secret Places I have listened to so much Music I am Driving in my Car Radio off and I hear Bob “there is a Natural Mystic blowing in the Air” and Yes Babbling about taking the White Queen for a Wife, while Neil Young Southern Man Drowns them all out, while Beethoven’s 5th Symphony crescendos, I am quite sure he had many secret Places, how else could he have created the 5th. A Day without music is total Madness. My other great secret Place lies in Great Quotes as in ” a person’s most beautiful asset is not a Head full of Knowledge, but a Heart full of Love, an Ear ready to Listen and a Hand willing to help others”. “The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the Rational mind is a faithful Servant, we have created a Society that Honor’s the Servant and has forgotten the Gift” ( Einstein) . Lincoln ” Nearly all. Men can stand Adversity but if you want to test a Man’s Character give him Power”. “Without all my secret places I would be just another victim of Society”( Anthony Dixon) . This is my 4th website, I have been writing Blogs for two and a half years, for two and a half years my Wife has been livid about the time I spend on my websites writing Blogs. I have been Married for thirty seven years, if I had started writing thirty six years ago your guess is as good as mine. This is my Ultimate Secret Place, and you my friends are looking through the Windows of my Life.