Life, Parenting And Relationships

Deviants

What is it about the Human Animal that makes him so volnuable to Deviations. I started noticing this Flaw in myself at fourteen years old. My Mother was one of the most devoted Christians that I have Known, naturally her values were Embedded in her Children. Yet here I am fourteen years old, sitting in the School Yard smoking Marijuana with my twelve years old Buddy, both of us Deviants and Juvenile Delinquents. He attended Catholic School, he told me Stories of Molestation I dread to Believe. Nonetheless I would be a hypocrite to deny that they never occurred. Months earlier a Teacher tried to Molest me, that episode left him just about blind in one Eye.

While he was incapacitated I found a Steak Knife in my Hand, I put down the Knife and spared his Life. That’s how easy it is to make the wrong decisions.  And you wonder what is a twelve and fourteen years old doing Smoking Weed in a School Yard. I would say trying to calm their nerves, watching the World around them turn to Gomorrah. Will someone explain to me why self Gratification is more important than your Reputation, your Career or your Life. I once knew a Man who told me that he Hung a Man in a Public Park for Raping his Sister. I bet the Rapist didn’t see that coming. Thirty years later the Media is Bulging with People coming Forward with Stories of Molestation and Abuse. The Abusers Rank from Bishops, to  a Big Ten Football Coach, Famous Actors to a Billionaire who Hung himself to avoid Justice.

Yet many people have Doubts about these accusations, it’s only a delusional Mind that makes up stories like that. The average Victim never comes forward, I never told my Mother or anyone else. This very moment as I am watching the local News, a young Mother is Arrested barely twenty. She was charged with assault on her six Months old Child who suffered inflicted wounds to the Brain. To call her a Deviant is a Compliment. Back to my original question what is wrong with the Human animal. Other Species Kill without warning anything approaching their infants, we Murder ours. Two years ago another young Mother is Arrested for slamming her four years old against a Wall, stuffing his lifeless Body in a big Black Bag like Garbage. The Boy’s Body was found dumped in a nearby Park.

When I hear Stories like these they rips at the fibers of my Christian teachings that no Man is beyond Redemption. My Mother preached it to me by telling me that there is good in everyone. Not being cynical let me tell you there is also bad in everyone, how we deal with our shortcomings define’s us. I know that Mental Illness is rampant but so also Is bad Judgement and Dimwitted Logic that Justice is Blind. Forget about being apprehended, what of moral decency towards your fellow Man, so many Lives ruined and lost to your selfish gratification and Rage. Growing up I was a rotten Kid but as Adulthood approached I knew I had to change my ways otherwise I would have to pay the consequences. Now that’s a word that a lot of people are not familiar with or thinking that they are above Retribution.

Please don’t think  you ever have a point to Prove, once a young Man with staunch Convictions of wrong and right, got in a struggle with a Lawbraker, a Gun goes off. Now he is on the Run. Life is Scarry so you better look at it with a Weighing Mind, it’s like Quicksand. You need to take each Step always calculating. OJ and Arron Hernandez didn’t calculate the Consequences, you can’t go about life doing whatever you want without facing consequences. A lot of us are the way we are because our Parents were scared to do their Jobs as Parents, so we ended up spoiled rotten and think that we literally can get away with Murder. As far as I am concerned all that Deviant behavior comes from stupidity thinking that they are smarter than the average Idiot, smart enough to commit Murder and elude the Law.

Ok so you are not that bad as to commit Murder or steal and to commit fraud, but the list goes all the way to Molestation and Adultery. In all reality Deviant Behavior started very early in Childhood, a child that manipulates his Parents is a Deviant. I once worked for a Man who was a hardworking Businessman, a self made Millionaire and loving Family man. He had three Boys, the older two were world-class Citizens. The youngest, before he was eighteen he was Arrested for DUI, Drug possession and Gun possession. So you see you can’t always blame the Parents. When I was fourteen I was a Deviant, my first Day in High School all that changed. I didn’t want to be a Gangster anymore, I made up my mind that I didn’t want to spend one Day in Prison, I wanted to Learn and Grow.

Sure I continued to smoke a little Marijuana through High School but I didn’t sell any. I had Connections Drug Dealers would Kill to be hooked up with, one an Airline Employee who Traveled the World. When I was sixteen I introduced my Cousin to a Man. My Cousin started working for him, he became wealthy running Kilos through the I 95 corridor from Florida to New York. Along the way he caught five Bullets and did fifteen years in Prison, those were my Bullets and my Prison time. If I wasn’t smart enough to see my Future I would not be able to work in the County Justice System which I presently work. Anything beyond a Traffic Citation bars you from working in the Justice System. And you wonder what is the Motivation for writing this Blog. It’s about keeping your Nose Clean because Your past will one Day come back and  bite you on the Ass just like your Credit Score.

You think I am lying, just ask the Millionaire Celebrities sitting in Prison alongside the Billionaire Drug Lords who could not refuse the Offers that I turned Down. Finally to all you youngsters doing what I did at fourteen, There is a price to pay. When I got to High School I had such a bad case of Inertia from Smoking the finest Strains my Education was suffocating by what I was putting in my Lungs and Brain. My last year in High School I was introduced to English Literature but the Damage was done My Inertia was full Blown, going to College and studying Literary Science was up in Smoke. The study of English Literature have produced many of great Writers, I was too busy listening to Pink Floyd talking about being comfortable Numb and Bob Marley singing Songs about Sensimillia. As far as I am concerned Inertia is the worst side effect from Smoking Marijuana for a Student. Deviants are People who refuses do the right thing,  Deviation from the Norm, always thinking that they are getting over.

Life, Parenting And Relationships

Taking Responsibility

Taking Responsibility

Don’t surround yourself with yourself.

Those phrase were in a song  written forty years ago, by Yes. Sad to say the words did not Resonate loudly enough. The song came to mind while sitting and pondering what is to become of Us, as People without Character. I am totally bewildered by People who think that they are the Universe, the reason the Sun shines. For instance O.J. Simpson, Aaron Hernandez, Phil Spector, Claud Von Bulow and all who followed the Suite.People accused or Convicted or Heinous Crimes. Right down to the sixteen years Boy in Tampa who shot randomly into a parked Car. Sixteen and is already a Gang member, inside the car was someone he had a Beef with, Jackass minded as he was, he opened fire on the car killing a fourteen years old Girl. Sixteen years old and he destroyed two young Lives.

All because he took himself too seriously and overthought himself right over the Brink of Sanity. Now he will have the rest of his Life to reflect on the very moment he released that Bullet never to be reloaded. That is just one of the millions of stories of people crossing the line of good Judgement and insanity. Lauren Hill puts it best ” Talk turn cold and I run for my Gun. Homicides are part of our daily lives, So much to the point, numerous Television shows have  Spawned about people in a fit of Rage or for Financial Gains, thinking that they can get away with Murder. In a World gone mad Mayhem rules the Media. My friend and I Joke that when something out of the Bizarre happens, we say only in Florida and hopes what happens in Florida stays in Florida. Far be it to be Isolated to Florida, it’s Global. If the Bazaar is Fad, then it’s Viral.

Like they say they don’t make them like they used to. Never more so than in People. Having been acustomed to the Push Button Lifestyle you believe that Life should not throw you any Curveballs or you will act out. Look at the Las Vegas Shooter, he took a vantage point from a Hotel Window high above an open-Air Concert with enough Ammunition and Armaments to keep the Red Coats at bay. The humor is for the Advocates. Nonetheless another one over the deep end. Whatever it is that burnt a hole in his Ass, that we will never know, grinding Axes is like taking Poison, while waiting for the other Person to Die. Whatever it is that brought him to Destruction must have consumed his every waken moments.

And that is the point of this Blog not using rationality through dark moments of making decisions that you will live with the rest of your Life. Or Die with your dark Secret. The average Person in a moment of Heat will act adversely, sometimes over the edge of Sanity. Our Prison System is Bulging and daily takes in  new Tadpoles into its Canals, as early as Juvenile. Life is Somewhat of a Science, to each action there is a reaction, by not Blowing up on Society you get to maintain your Liberty. Anger Management is way underrated, it should be thought when Toddlers throw Tantrums for the first time. those of us who deals well with adversity are the ones who gets to live another Day, in more ways than you think. It also allows the recipient of your wrought to live another Day.

We are all born with our own Demons, you don’t believe me let’s go back to one of the first Men to have walked this Earth. Cain killed his Brother for no apparent reason other than Jealousy, and it remains today. How we deal with our Demons define who we are and the strength of our Characters. People of strong Character die for their Beliefs. People with no Character kill for little or no Reason. Bottom line they have very little or no foresight to know that no good Deed goes un-punished. Either in a Courtroom or the Court of Karma, justice is the Common Denominator. We are living in a Society built on Laws and run by Laws. Thinking that you are an Entity or greater is a common flaw among big Egos. Just take a look at all the fallen Celebrities. Like the Man said ” The bigger the Bill the harder the Fall”.

When I met Mark Harshbarger he was in his early twenties. He confided in me that he was covered with almost two hundred thousand Dollars of Life Insurance. Years later his Wife Marybeth an Avid Hunter and Sharpshooter, who have hit Bulls Eye at one thousand yards. Shot and killed Mark under 100 yards claiming she thought she was shooting at a Bear. At the time of his Death he was covered close to a Million in Life Insurance, while She had an affair with his Brother. It’s People like that who motivated this Blog. In the middle of writing this Blog I am watching Dateline, right in front of my face my Blog unfolded. A handsome Doctor is sentenced to Life for using Murder to get out of the Marriage. He took himself far too seriously thinking that he could outsmart the World.

It all boils down to Respect for individuals Rights. Such as the right to say no for instance. Not indoctrinating your kids to Respect others Rights is paralleled to raising a loose Canon. What else could produce a sixteen years old to commit Murder, or the one who Raped a sixty years old Woman, approaching his seventeenth Birthday he raped a seventeen years old college bound Girl, gave her such a severe beating, she is now a Vegetable for Life, can’t eat, can’t speak. What else could produce such a Monster than bad upbringing. The Analysist always ask the question” do you Hate your Parents” whereas the question should be do you Hate Society. Blaming society for all your pains is wimping out. The Bible says we are Guilty by Thoughts Deeds and Action. Taking responsibility for your actions is a big step towards Maturity.

Many Men grow old and never experienced Maturity, I often wonder how is that possible. Living in your own Dream World, anything is possible. One year ago one of my Neighbors killed his Roommate who repelled his advances, he told the Cops that he  always had a hard time dealing with rejection all his Life. Now who is the Kid that’s afraid of the Dark, he was seventy one years old, and never took the time to grow up. If you are sixteen years old and you Lashes out on Society and it lands you in Jail, your upbringing is flawed. Worst of all you fail to be the Captain of your Ship, blaming everyone for your broken Rudder. There are Orphans who have Risen to the Occasion and made great contributions to the same Society that people with two Parents and the comfort of stability, try to undermine and destroy with Terror.

All because they can’t deal with adversity.They say that in each Life the Rain must fall, in some it’s a torrential downpour. How we deal with the Rain defines our Characters. Working in the Justice System have proven to me that a good many of us is lacking strong Characters. One of my coworker and I have great discussions about the People in our Town. The discussions usually ends that there must be something in the Water, that brings out the worst in People. A little adversity in their lives and Mr Hyde pops out. Sometimes there is no Rain falling yet they end up in deep water. For instance, my Hometown has been Plagued with juvenile Car Thieves for the last five years. Some Offenders as young as fourteen, some have lost their lives in bad crashes, burnt crisp.

When caught, the Kids say that they are Bored. What a Crock, when I was fifteen working after School stocking shelves in a Supermarket and trying to stay abreast of my homework I didn’t have time to be bored. Furthermore I was a Deviant who was threatened with Juvenile Detention. My Life was well structured, yet I chose to test my Mother’s will. When I was sixteen going to a Party” I was told what time to be Home. Five hours beyond my Corfu I came Home Shit- faced. She stayed up all Night with a Broomstick waiting for me. One strategically placed whack dropped me to my Knees. That sobered me instantly and cured my bad behavior.  In today’s society and  Courts If you leave a bruise on your Children it is Child Abuse. If you’re not afraid of Consequences and  you have no structure in your life, naturally you have time to steal Cars four A.M. on a Sunday morning.

One of my Neighbors killed himself and his two young Sons, his Wife has permanent Scars
The Driver of this Maserati killed himself and his two young Sons, his Wife severely injured. He was Drunk, Talking about Responsibility.

 

If you’re looking for Root cause, you need to visit the place they call Home and the so-called Parents. As a result of poor Parenting and Child Abuse Laws, there have been an Erosion in Core Values. Can you imagine fifteen years old with multiple Warrants outstanding. Furthermore going to Car Dealerships and removing Cars from the Lot is not a game or a Hobby it’s Grand Theft. It’s the life you choose to fall through the Cracks and live your life in our Prison Systems off the Taxpayers. All because you refuse to grow up. Taking responsibility for your Life is what growing up Right is all about. You are never too young or old to take responsibility for your actions. When confronted with tough Decisions weigh everything out to the point of being able to live with your Decision. Do not outfox yourself, think beyond the moment. Wrapping up the Line of Insanity, Wednesday July 31 2019 the Pilot of a major Airline reports to work visibly intoxicated with a Bottle in his Bag. On that note I rest my Case on good Judgement and Responsibility.

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A Florida police sergeant was hospitalized Monday night after a 15-year-old driving a stolen car crashed into the officer’s vehicle, authorities say.

St. Petersburg police told Fox13 the sergeant was heading west on 18th Avenue South when his car was struck by a blue Toyota Camry driving north on 7th Street South. Investigators say the teenage driver ran a stop sign at the intersection. The sergeant and three passengers from the Camry were taken to a local hospital to be treated for non-life-threatening injuries.

The 15-year-old was arrested on outstanding warrants, the news station reported. Officials say charges will be filed against him, but they are still searching for the owner of the car.

Monday night’s crash took place hours after Phelexis Jakara Robinson, 26, was killed in a hit-and-run accident by another suspected car thief. Robinson was trying to fix her car on Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Boulevard when a person driving a stolen Infiniti sedan struck her and fled the scene. The driver in the hit-and-run has yet to be apprehended.

Tampa-area authorities have struggled to prevent teenagers from stealing cars in recent years. A 2017 Tampa Bay Times investigation found that Pinellas County saw juveniles being arrested and charged with grand theft auto at a higher rate than any other major county in Florida.

“These kids walk through the neighborhood, they try the car doors, and if the car has a push start, they press the button and see if it works,” St. Petersburg Police Chief Tony Holloway said at a Tuesday news conference. “It’s that simple … They’re driving these cars at 70 and 80 mph, running stop signs and they do not know what that vehicle can and cannot do.”

Click for more from Fox13News.com.

Fox News’ Kira Grant contributed to this report.

Fox News’ Kira Grant contributed to this report.

Life, Parenting And Relationships

On The Axis

 

 

Coordinates of Life

It doesn’t matter whether you turned 18 in the 1800s or 1972 or 2000 we all went through the same doubts, insecurity and confusion. We are not Kids anymore yet we are not Adults in the true sense, young Adults maybe, some of us never crossed the Threshold. Crossing over into Adulthood is a big step, it means taking responsibility for everything from here on in. If you choose to use Drugs or Alcohol be aware that for each action there is a reaction, whether Behavioural Psychological or Health and they all have Consequences.

 

I started smoking Cigarettes at fourteen fifty years later COPD, Emphysema, Marijuana at fourteen, Inertia all through High School, it distracted me from Shakespeare and put me in Edgar Allan Poe’s World, Beer at fourteen Alcoholic at nineteen. Worst of all I was a sneak, living under a Christian Woman’s Roof. Luckily I was able to overcome all but the Cigarettes by twenty one, yeah but at what Price wanting to prove to myself that I was a Man I blew the learning years. By the time that I realized the Importance of a College Education the Window of opportunity was closed. Luckily I broke away from my influences before twenty one, I could have been a Bum for the rest of my Life. In Life your associations picks you up or drag you down, choose them wisely. Don’t be a Sheep in the Herd, be the Shepard.

 

Peer Pressure is worse than any Addiction it makes you do things that you ordinarily wouldn’t  have even thought of on your own, don’t fall for the Trap, if you love me or if you want to be with me. In High School we had a saying ” instead of pulling themselves out of the Hole they are in a Junkie will pull you in”, part of making the Transition into Adulthood is being your own Person ( Individuality) then there is Responsibility. To me Responsibility is the hardest part about Being an Adult, being an Adult means that now you have to fend for yourself( provide, care and protect yourself) that is why you should not be in a hurry to agitate your Parents with bad behavior, while they are putting a Roof over your head and food in your Stomach, they have your best interest at Heart.

 

Ask anyone in College who are working their way through School. Fending for yourself without a Proper Education is scrounging Bottom. Don’t be in such a hurry to be Kicked out on your own. Most Parents will support their kids late into their twenties and some Beyond. I once lived next door to a fifty years old Man who lived off his seventy five years old Mother. He lost his Driving Privileges through DUI. Not being able to Drive himself to Work made him a Dependent, he wasn’t even ambitious enough to take any job within walking distance. Being a Dependent all your Life is choosing not to cross the Threshold. Remember the word Responsibility.

 

The awkward years are difficult for anyone, remember childhood isn’t far behind and the challenges of Adulthood is right in front of you, take time relishing your youth, while making Bold smart steps into Adulthood. As soon as you look around the years are gone and you are now your Parents Reflection, a Parent yourself with the Headaches of raising a Child who knows everything, I was that Child. At fourteen I knew everything including how to get stoned on weed, who did it hurt but me, who suffered from Inertia, me, what did I gained, nothing, what did I loose everything, the chance of being a Scholar and an Author.

 

Instead I did what I had to do to make a Living to support the Family I could not wait to have, Finding out fifty years later that I like sharing my Thoughts and a Vivid Imagination is an essential for Writing. To be eighteen again I wouldn’t have  blown precious youth in hurrying to grow old. I would have taken  time to smell the Roses before I became addicted to Coffee and Nicotine. At the end of writing this Blog I just Learned that Teens Smoking went up 80% . If Jumping off the San Francisco Bridge was Trending, would you be there. Vaping is Trending please don’t Jump, its just as bad as Nicotine or worse, it gives you Popcorn Lunges. Chart your Course follow your chosen Path because the Axis of Life fades like Footprints in the Sand. Making the right choices dictates the rest of your Life, Eighteen is your fork in the Road choose wisely.

 

 

Insights from Alice Cooper

 

Lines form on my face and hands

Lines form from the ups and downs

I’m in the middle without any plans

I’m a boy and I’m a man

I’m eighteen

And I don’t know what I want

Eighteen

I just don’t know what I want

Eighteen

I gotta get away

I gotta get out of this place

I’ll go runnin’ in outer space

Oh yeah

I got a

Baby’s brain and an old man’s heart

Took eighteen years to get this far

Don’t always know what I’m talkin’ about

Feels like I’m livin’ in the middle of doubt

‘Cause I’m

Eighteen

I get confused every day

Eighteen

I just don’t know what to say

Eighteen

I gotta get away

Lines form on my face and my hands

Lines form on the left and right

I’m in the middle

The middle of life

I’m a boy and I’m a man

I’m eighteen and I like it

Yes I like it

Oh I like it

Love it

Like it

Love it

Eighteen!

Eighteen!

Eighteen!

Eighteen and I like it


Songwriters: Alice Cooper / Dennis Dunaway